When the Sun Hits
May 23, 2008
Last year was a pretty rough year for Charlie and I. So many awful things happened; things that we inflicted on ourselves. It was like it was all a dream, like we had warped into two completely different people who didn’t know how to relate to one another. We were enemies at war; and I truly don’t even remember how it all started. It was just horrible. When we finally came out of our trance we thought to ourselves, what the hell are we doing, we are completely destroying each other, and for what. We laid there many nights quite, sad and sorry; feeling bad for what we put each other through; and hurt for being put through what could have totally been avoided. -But really, thinking about it now, I know it’s all for a reason. If we hadn’t gone through it we’d just be a couple married almost seven years getting by without emotions, and simply just going through the motions. But today, we’re glowing again…no darkness…just light and space to grow. We came through it, maybe not gracefully, but we did. It took a long time, but we’re finally back. We’ve made our truce, and are finally in our new element.
These songs, actually the entire Souvlaki album, are for those nights of realization, and really just feeling quite silly about it all.
And, I really wish I could upload songs directly from my own files, but I’m not ready to upgrade on here just yet. Lali Puna does an amazing cover of, Slowdive’s, 40 days – It really is the epitome of it all. I wish I could post that one for you, but they don’t have it on Hypemachine, not by Lali Puna or Slowdive. You can hear the 30 second sample of it just about anywhere you can sample music though.
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For the echoey spaces between heartbreak and falling in love again.
Slowdive
I like slowdive!
oh how funny! yes that is the album almost of all time besides pink floyds dark side of the moon! I rannk that one at number 2 well maybe 1.5, but yes its true alot of downfall alot of drinking, alot of crazy crazy nights, and alot of fights! I think with the pressures of no money, stuggling, working to hard, trying to get to much done, just crashed it all! I can recall many many nights of just working working working for months on end, to make the money to pay bills killing us and the kids, and realizing is it all worth it? Sure in the short term, but the long term hurts everyone and everything. Hell even the kids were like “Daddy can you play with me tonight?” NO sorry I have to work work work!
Last year was a very bad year, and a very good year at the same time! I think that you just have to put alot back and realize what your doing to the other party! Marrage is hard, and kids are HARDER! (Take my word for it people!) but you have to make it work! Figure out how you saw that person in the light the first time, and go back and see what and how you lost it! Thank Jebus for bands like Slow Dive, My BLoody Valentine, Sunny Day, because they make you think and make you want to be what you can be and really should be, at the same time, they make you want to understand!
Lalie Puna is the shit by the way too!!!!!!!!